Happy 4th of July...?

Hello, world!

Today is the 5th of July. My 4th was quite interesting. Though, I suppose it would have been interesting whether or not it was the 4th of July. The whole Independence Day thing is moot, pretty much.

Jon and I finally just talked about college. I know it's a year away, but I have to make my plans now. With this visit to DePaul coming up, higher education has been a primary subject on my mind. I have all these plans, but Jon has different ones.

Last night was deffinately emotional. Jon moreso than me, which is weird, but tolerable. The primary problem is that he for some reason doesn't believe in himself. That's why he has this lurking feeling that our relationship can't last past when I leave for Chicago next year. I've told him over and over that I want to wait for him, if he'll come with me in another year.

I'm not quite sure exactly how it happened, but I think I convinced him to come to Chicago with me! He said the main reason he wanted to stay in Kansas is because all his family is here, his friends, so on and so forth. This is the first place he's lived in for more than a year (military).

I'm not sure what happened. Looking back, I don't remember quite what was said. Which is why I'm blogging it. I'm trying to get my mind around this. He is going to come with me, right? I'm pretty sure that's what happened.

It's a year away. That's a long time. I see no reason why we wouldn't be together until then, though. I hated before when he'd say he loves me for as long as he can, meaning until I leave. But now there's hope for more of a future. You can't look forward to an end. I have hope for a future that doesn't involve us breaking up at set time. I think now he does too. That's nice. Really nice.